A Month to Forget

August ended up being my worst month in 8 years as a professional poker player.  I barely staved off a losing month, coming out slightly ahead after rakeback.  The scariest part to me is I don't think I ran that bad. On a scale of 1-10, maybe a 3.  If I had to rate my play on a scale of 1-10, it would be about a 2 or 3.  I was totally unfocused, unmotivated, and distracted throughout the month.  One major distraction was the 2+2 forums and I've stopped posting there as a result.  I think I had about 500 posts in 6 years there and I probably have over 500 this year.  I've known all along that posting there offers very little benefit so it was pretty stupid of me to start posting there again.  I've also shut the chat off of most players and am just trying to focus on the games.

One the VPP front, I'm up to 800K.  I've got a month and a half left and need to average about 4500/day. One of my best friends is coming to visit for 3 days so I'm actually going to have to do closer to 5K/day on the days he's not here.  I'm not too concerned about making SNE in time, but I'm very concerned with finding my motivation and focus.  Usually a bad losing streak is what jolts me and motivates me but despite my worst month ever, I really didn't go through any big downswings.  It was just back and forth all month as you can see in the graphs below.

Anyway, not in a blogging mood.  I'm pretty frustrated with poker.  What I really need is a break, unfortunately that's not going to happen (thank you DOJ/Black Friday).

Good Luck at the tables everyone.